“Sometimes I feel,” he whispered,
his muscular baritone vibrating somewhere near my heart,
“like we're living in a film
noir from the Thirties.”
I looked into his blue eyes, noting
nothing black or gray lived there.
He was cranky tonight, some project
gone wrong,
But I had to admit, he had a point.
Coltrane, Mingus, Chet Baker on the
stereo every night,
scratching vinyl because we're
both such music snobs.
Bottles of Macallan scotch because we
drink only the best.
And we drink it on ice made from
water procured in the Alps.
We were both in black cashmere, smoking
home-rolled clove cigarettes
And my nails and my lips were both
painted deep red.
A few friends had called us hipsters,
but we weren't;
We were tragically cool, so
tragic, because we meant it from the heart.
Our life was all about emotion through cynicism,
Erotica through narcissism, sexual satisfaction through selfishness.
Something had to change; I knew I was
annoying him
And he knew he was boring me to
tears.
Other than the orange spark when we
lit cigarettes and candles
even our apartment was noir now.
I was worried the food would soon
follow …
White sugar, black beans, white
rice, black raspberries,
Milk and black coffee and never
the two would meet.
I walked to the window, black stained
oak covered in heavy white velvet
With black lace floating beneath,
And stared at the magic moon hanging in
the sky tonight.
She was so clear and so large, she
nearly looked as if she was made of crystal
Just another image to add to our noir, more atmosphere for the next scene.
I turned realizing how much light the
moon lent to our darkened apartment
and how the shadows seemed to play
off every wall.
Suddenly there was a flash of silver
from the moonlight
and I remember wondering briefly
if it was lightning
but when I saw it again on the
wall, and his reflection in the mirror
I knew Mother Nature had nothing
to do with this particular film of my life.
To die in the big city, in a black and
white apartment,
wearing all black, my blood as red
as my nails and my lips,
that crystal moon watching it all ...
was such a cliché, I don't
think I'll ever get over it.
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